Makin menua, makin merasa sepertinya gue hidup salah jalan.
Why?
Hidup gue
terlalu ordinary. I'm too afraid to stand up for my own opinion. Maybe I have
syndrome glossophobia, alias takut bicara di depan umum. That's
suck! Really!
Gue lagi
mikir, what makes me so nervous in front of people.
Glossophobia
is the fear of public speaking. The word glossophobia comes from the Greek
γλῶσσα glōssa, meaning tongue, and φόβος phobos, fear or
dread.
People who suffer from glossophobia
tend to freeze in front of any audience, even a couple of people. They find
their mouth dries up, their voice is weak and their body starts shaking. They
may even sweat, go red and feel their heart thumping rapidly.
Beneran dah... penyakit satu ini sungguh merepotkan. Waktu gue seharusnya speak up, gue malah mengkeret. Memikirkan apakah pikiran yang mau gue utarakan ini sudah benar, apakah gue terlihat punya otak, atau sedangkal lubang di jalanan yang rusak. Too much thinking, and do nothing.
Gue lagi
berusaha, how to overcome this problem. How to be a better person, by acting
and speak up what's on my mind. Berat banget, apalagi kalau gue belum menguasai
topik. Langsung tingkat kepedean mendekati 0, bahkan minus. Suara jadi shaky
dan gue deg-degan serasa mo pingsan, Trauma apa ya, yang bikin gue jadi begini.
It can happen in the
workplace where the manager experiences panic attacks at the thought of making
a presentation to her superiors. It can happen at home where the job-seeker
becomes emotionally distraught before going on a job interview. It can happen
at a party where the possibility of meeting someone new is curtailed by
butterflies in the stomach and sweaty palms. The thought of speaking in public
can leave us frozen with fear. It can also cause us to miss out on many
academic, social, and career opportunities.
So, harus
gimana ya gue. Kok berat banget mengatasi ini. Some say, gue malah harus
sering-sering bicara di depan umum. Aduh, mikirin itu aja uda keder gue. Ya
ampun...
