Home Sweet Home

Like a wish come true, finally I have my own landed house! 
Akhirnya satu persatu wishlist terpenuhi juga. Febuary kemarin sudah mulai KPRnya, dan serah terima uda dilakukan.
Karena kebetulan kita banyak mau nih, rumah masih harus direnovasi lagi. Cukup banyak abis duit, but part of designing home is fun. I really love it so much. If I'm not thinking about the money, I will make my home just like in the magz. :)

Problemnya, renov rumah itu memang harus punya tukang yang efektif, efesien, dan berestetika. Sayangnya, tukang yang ditemui ini superb oonnya.
Gimana bisa, rumah yang harusnya 1 minggu kelar karena tutup atap dibelakang. Ujung-ujungnya molor sampai 2 minggu dan hasilnya, ampuuuunnnn!!
Suntik sumur aja ga bener, bikin colokan listrik miring, bikin saklar terbalik, ngecat ga beres. Warna catnya itu looohh, masya oloh! Bagus darimana? Adanya juga murahan.
Kamprettt lah...

Tapi setidaknya, spring bed kita udah beli. Things to do-nya tinggal clean up the mess, kemudian buat kitchen set, beli AC dan rak. Plus meja belajar buat aku. Itu yang paling penting.
Yah semoga bisa cepet kelar lah. Udah ga sabar....

Exhausted... Such imperfect person I am.

So this is it.
Aku merasa sangat, sangat, sangat lelah dengan hal ini. 
Semua menuntut kesempurnaan yang tidak mungkin aku miliki.
I'm sorry, maybe I'm not in the right position to handle this. 
Kenapa semua hal selalu dipersalahkan? 
Jika memang hal tersebut adalah human error, masihkah harus dipertanyakan?

I'm not perfect, I can't be what they want me to be. I'm tired.
I never get chance to be what I wanna be.
Sorry, I can't take it anymore.
That's why I decide, I have to move on. 

It's not easy to works, and always be someone who gets the blame.
Sales never wrong, but operational is always wrong.
I'm tired.
It seems like I never do things right.
They asked me to do A-Z, check documents, check email, check this and that. 
Report this, report that. This is too much.
Maybe I'm not the right person to do this.
I'm tired. Stressed out.

Life could be better. I just need chance and God's help. 
This started to happen when I far from God. 
My mistake. 
I realized, I can't do anything without God's will.
I should stop making sins, and walks in God's path.